all that i ever wanted to understand my nightmares possessed by my fears betrayed by my pride alone i wandered in the deepest dark seeking comfort from the vanity each time i escaped the real my soul died, died a bit more confronting the evil within praying for my angel to appear agonized whisper into the emptiness begging for salvation - salvation for this cursed mind words without meaning touch without feeling i do not recognize my own face eyes that were once shining now extinguished left only a silent cold sound of a tear falling down in the desperate hour of loneliness this shattered heart reaching for it's relief - the relief it cannot find glance without affection kiss without sensitivity promise without comprehension love without hope i do not remember my own tale betrayed by my anger betrayed by my delusions betrayed by my lust (i wish) strength - to be released from my demons (i desire) wisdom - to forgive the past to forgive me